Tuesday, December 2, 2008
where in the world
Saturday I surfed Google Earth with one of my favorite people, looking at all the places we'd been or lived. Hometowns, college town, Hawaii to Africa and back - breathtaking and it was only 2-D. Seeing some people in the street level views, we got to talking about how creepy it would be if we were seeing these images in real time. We watch way too many spy movies. I found myself thinking about all the things I do occasionally or regularly that I'd rather not have people see in such a manner. I realized I was making a list of habits to resolve to change.
Today I read Chapter 8 "God's Majesty" from J.I. Packer's Knowing God.
1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave, you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
"Just as I am never left alone, so I never go unnoticed....I can hide my heart, my past, and my future plans, from those around me (and man, do I work hard at this most days), but I cannot hide anything from God. He sees through all my reserve and pretense. Living becomes an awesome business when you realize that you spend every waking moment of your life in the sight and company of an omniscient, omnipresent Creator."
I am speechless.
I am small.
I care way too much how other people view me.
I have some things I'd rather He not see anymore.
I have some habits to change.
I am scared I will forget this within the hour.
I am thankful that I cannot be forgotten.